I have always felt that I have been a spiritual person, although I do not have too much knowledge of what that may have meant. I have tried to live my life in the right way, doing the right things, and trying to make a difference in the small ways that individuals can and do during their lives. I know that this is a really hard time for you all, and listening to this may not make the loss that you are suffering any easier, but it is important to me to know that you understand how I feel about you all. None of us know when we are going to die, and tomorrow is not a given right, but all of us know that one day we will. And death is a random affair, not to be taken personally. Throughout my life I have been lucky enough to be surrounded by people who have made me so happy: My parents, and grandparents who helped to make me who I am with their love and guidance. Colin, my brother. I guess you must have been as annoying as an older brother is supposed to be when we were growing up Col, but I can’t remember you being anything other than tolerant of an annoying little sister. You even let me play with your Scalectric cars! That made me feel a very special sister. Jacqui, my sister, with whom I will remain inextricably linked forever. We are different in so many ways sis (you would never be seen dead in a pair of combats! Pardon the pun…), but not in how we feel for each other. The things that we have endured together over the last few years have made us closer than ever, and stronger than ever. Our biological and spiritual link to each other means that we will never be alone. Mike, my husband. When we first met, you filled a space in my life that only you could, and I knew then that it would be forever. You are a special person Frostie, and I feel so blessed to have been loved by you. Elliot. My darling son Elliot. Goodness, how hard it has been to leave you. Do you remember when I cried for an hour on Newton Abbot train station when you first moved to Scotland; well it feels worse than that, and that is saying something! Words cannot express what you mean to me, and how proud I am to be your mum. Susan, Debbie, Matthew, Michael, Vicky, Timothy, Robert, Rosanna, Sandra, Nicola, Stephanie and Megan. My life was made so much richer for having known you all, and you each have a special place in my heart. And Carl, you and your wonderful family have a large space in my life; always there when I called. Thank you. My friends and colleagues too, who have shared life’s ups and downs with me, and whose love and support made this recent event in my life so much more bearable. I am who I am because of you all. So, if you think that I am a good person who has endeavoured through life to do the right thing, and has given as well as taken, then it is thanks to you and your influences on me. I would love you to have a moment’s silent contemplation to think of happy, happy times. There have been so many. I have a special request of you all: support and care for each other at this hard, hard time. The guilt I feel for causing you all this pain will only be eased if I know that you are all being comforted by those you love, because this will get you through. So, when you say goodbye to me today, I want you to remember the words that ET said to his best friend on planet Earth (who happened to be called Elliot) He said, “I’ll be right here” (touch finger to forehead), and I will be, because once you have known and loved someone, they never leave you. You absorb them and they live through you as you remember them. So, just remember me and I will be there. Sis, this last song is for us, cos we really loved to dance. See you guys. xx